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Undeniably True
It kept me thinking till this day if I did a right choice or not. But, I assume that I do the right thing for my whole self. Hmm, and btw Ma called me yesterday and told me something about psychotic pakcik. She said that her neighbour (a girl) learned driving with pakcik and he said to her to be more chubby instead of skinny. And, Ma said too that pakcik had tried to sentuh her neighbour , but got scolded because her neighbour is a defensive person.. Later on, he didn't try to do anything to her. THE END π
I felt terribly bad at myself when I knew that. I literally wanted screaming out loud till I lose my voices at that time..π± Hmm, flabbergastedly, I knew I am such a coward and thoughtless for letting that happened. I knew I was wrong, but I just couldn't think of anything at that time instead of focusing on my driving. REALLY! If only I could turn back the time, I should be wiser and braver instead letting my dignity scratched over.. Yes, I am and was a dumb. I knew that. πͺπ©π
But, yeah. All I can say is I learn from my mistake. The incident had left me such an impact to be a straight forward and braver person. I really hope I can stand up for myself, just myself.. π And, I really thanks for those who listened to my story and try comforted me instead of judging me. I know and knew I was wrong for being like that, but all I need is a little bit of hug and comforting sessions..
Exhausted
You know what? I did say that I learn driving with abang aumm ,right? Ma is so funnylah, because she and I did searching for abang's social apps, just for fun actually. I really thought I am the only one whom 'tak ada kerja nak pi cari abang tuuu, semata-mata jeee'.. totally lol π
This is what happened, Ma called me yesterday and asked about my driving card and watsoever.. And then, it turn out that she wanted to know abang's full name, which I said that I didn't knowlah his name. Funny how things could be, we both wondered what his full name, his social apps like fb or insta.. Siap searching lagi kt fb ngah tu memalam.. Hehe..
And I asked Ma if Fat knew anything, yelah abang tu kan baik dengan dia. Manalah tau dapat kecek" sikit info ann.. Unfortunately, Fat didn't know too.. Too badlah , kan? Kalau ada, bolehlah nak stalk dia..Haish, Through the conversations , we both can't stop laughing when talking about that abang's attitude and how we both turned out to have crush on him.. I just can't imagine that, okayyy? π
Later and so on, we both just got tired to search his social acc, like an idiot person. Takkanlah next class aku sesaja nak tanya abang tu , kan? Nampak noh crush gila. π
I am not trying to be too obviouslah infront of him.Hmm, suddenly I remembered how bad I was talking bad about abang.. Argh. Sumpah menyesal gila mengata abang tu sampai tak suka dengan dia.. Last'', sibuk juga nak belajar balik dengan dia..
Adoi.. seperti menjilat ludah pula..π₯ Whatever it is, Ma ws texted me and said that abang could be a married person, so that's why he doesn't own any acc. Huhu. Patah hati gini. Biasanya , orang yang aku suka ni mesti laki orang.. Well, I must say that what Ma said could be true or not. Hmm. He is probably a married person. OK. BYEEEπ’
#PS: Tak frust, tapi kecewa sikit kalau betul. Nampak sangat hati ni masih goyahhπͺπ©
Devillish Feb
Little did I know that the month of February is pretty challenging to me. First, I got abang who is super garang and serious like he was having PMS all day long. Hmm, I bet because of the weather is super hot, for sure it affect his emotions that time. But, to be honest he is okay actually. He just got mad when I did wrong only.
So, erm it is time for me to countdown to 2/3 , because I am going to continue my driving lessons with abang again. Quite funny doesn't it? I used to hate him, but now I am the one who is looking for him back. Huwaahh, it feels so wrong and so right at the same timee.. I feel wrong because I am going to look bad infront of him, but at the same time I feel right because I can escape from the psychotic pakcik.. π
I don't know how am I going to face him again, but I am hoping that he will always full of smile. I really cross my fingers, wishing that he will in a good mood , cheers and hoping that the weather is windy instead of hot.
And one last thing, I am hoping that I don't get nervous and get panic easily. Yes, I am really a panicky person when it comes to driving. I just can't control the emotion when that abang beside me.. π I just hope this is not a sign of liking someone. I don't want to have hope on that. Huwaahhh..π
Worst Day
It never crossed my mind that everything will turn out so scary. Well, what I am trying to say is my new pakcik really scared me. I wonder how many students treated the same way as he did. When I recalled back, I really thought that pakcik just being friendly to me, but it turn out he said something that I did not expect at first place, well erm, he said cheesy words that made me felt goosebump and uneasy..
Ergh, I really hate to write this, but erm he whatsapp me that I looked cute when I was nervous. I was like, 'What the hell is he talking about?OMG! He's so scary af.'... All of those fucking words really rummaging inside my mind. I don't know what exactly did he see inside me but this is totally fucking crazy.. And erm, the worst part of it, he asked me if he can saved my latest profile picture because I looked so damn cute.
Can't you imagined he said that? No way lah I will let him did that..And that conversation really made my night completely scary, more scarier than seeing a ghost , to be honest. I mean, he is totally crazy flirting out with his student, and I am one of the victim. OMG, that incident really set an impact to me that I really get a goosebump and feel a little paranoid when I recalled the moment..
Okay, just enough on that. The truth is, I am telling this story of mine because I just want girls out there beware of this kind of man. It doesn't matter whether he is young or old but when he is trying to touch you in the first place, you know he is a bad person..πͺ
Pretty Good
Okay, blog! Moving on to my second day with abang which happen this week. I have done 3x times practice at home and it turn out so good. Hehehe. Well thumbs up to my mother because she teaches me a little bit of technique. So, my second day with abang turns out good which is making me super happy.
He is also gives me some compliment when I do S and Z road clearly without any single mistakes. Can't you believe how happy I am at that time? For sure I can feel that my heart is full of flower with a little bit of sparkle. And after that, he teaches me how to do side parking and angle parking. There are so many parking at that time and I have to memorise the marking and the step and so on till I get frustrated at myself. Ergh. That is too annoying you know.
I just cannot imagine how other people can memorise that? What I can remember is every little things that he says about parking just fade away in a few moment. Maybe because the weather is so hot that my mind can't bear it any longer. Okay,, enough on that. Last but not least, the hill side. Driving on top of the hill is already scary me, and what even scarier is when I want to drive down the hill but the car do not make it, I know that this is the end of my lifeeee..
For sure I can say that once my car has reverse down , everything will be in total chaos. How could that car betray me?? Huwahhhh.. All I can think is just getting everything done and over it. But, how can things be easier when he always scolds me? Huhu. I know that he is getting mad for good, but sometimes it can be too irritating and too unbelievable to accept, okay? Well, at the end of it he does says that I really improve a lot and probably he will take me out the next day.
Like I said, PROBABLY.. π°π± Oh no! How things going to be tomorrow?
Totally Driving
And hello once again after a long hiatus. What a day and worst two week everr! You know what? Even though I don't get a permanent teacher for my driving lesson, I thought my temporary teacher is not hot tempered but it turn out to be one of it. Like seriously? Okay let me tell you my worst first day with this abang.
On the first day, I kind of nervous to know which one of the men at Ngah who's going to teach me. As far as I concern his name is *****. I keep rummaging in my mind that I have a few people that I think could be him. Unfortunately and shockingly, it turn out that the one I had seen the day before is him. OMG!! I am freaking out at that time as soon as he holding my card.. I am so and totally nervous because his face is so 'ketat' and looks so serious like he is going to eat mee.. Fuhh , my body is shaken and I can feel the goosebump already.
After a few moment, he calls out my name and giving me a sign to follow him to the car. He drives the car under a shady tree and he starts to teach me the basic one. It is really awkward because there is no sound of music from the radio. *well I must say things can be worst when the surrounding get silent.. Well, I try my best to drive the car but everything is getting mess up when he is always controlling the 'stereng' like, can abang please stop controlling me? can't you just believe me that I can do?? Ergh,, so stressful enough.
Maybe because he doesn't want the car to get broken like a shit? I guess that is why he is trying to hold me back . And, as a teacher he is so 'garang' than my Cikgu Kimi. I was like, am I in hell right now? Oh god, please save me from himmm! Indeed and totally I just can't stand any longer at that time, but I just have to bear with it. And one more thing, he always try to warning me that he wants to 'jentik' my feet if I can't control my clutch and brake. Who else doesn't freaking out when hear that? Ergh.
Probably he is testing me. Emm yeah, not to mention he always getting hot tempered when I suddenly make the engine stop. He stares at me and my heart just stop beating. I am panic, and freaking out and and and everything that when someone in shock feels. *doesn't mean my heart stop beating because I like him.I don't like him, OK!
At the end of the day, all I could think is getting home as fast as I can. I am so spiritless physically and mentally. That abang totally made my day feels so worst.
#This is just a story and an experience of mine. I don't intend to talk bad about him. I know that there are some reason why he is being like that to me. But, actually he is quite okay when he is outside and when I drive carefully.. π
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Hello. My name is Auni Sabrina. I am 17 years old. Currently not doing anything.
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